pen on paper

Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life
- Mark Twain

There are times when I don’t want what I’m chasing and times when I want to chase something that isn’t there.
I can easily have a day where all I do is have some beer, listen to my favourite music, sit by the sea side, and end the day with a classic movie. I don’t want to be sitting in office, staring at the comp and deciding how to phrase the sentences in my intro.
There are times when all I want to do is write poetry and read poetry. Not sit down and file a story.
Most often I’m given a topic to write on and I enjoy it. But there are times when I want my mind to let go of constrains and put together something that I chanced upon through my mind’s wandering.
There are so many experiences I want to write about and so many unknown things I want to discover while I write. And I’m aware that I might wake up one day and end up writing a whole book on something that I never dreamt about; or may just get lost in oblivion without writing a single significant line. Yet I spend hours thinking what I should write about.
Writing is not putting down thoughts as such. It is more about the evolution of thoughts into its own words; words that were lingering somewhere in your subconscious but never found their way out in the real world. I think I need to be intoxicated big time to be able to write like a dream and at times I feel that I should probably just open some pages inside me and show them to the world on a Sunday afternoon.
Whenever I talk I feel like I’m at loss of words. Words fall out of my head quite often, and then I end up making no sense by the time I fish them out from the sea of my consciousness. But when I write words just flow. They fall straight out of my head onto paper.
Writing is magical. It creates a figure, out of the smoke that probably came out through your ears, when you were thinking of what to do with the cramped space in your brain. And then thoughts just blow into the world, forming shapes made out of smoky clouds, and touch the senses of those who walk through it.
At the end of the day, writing makes me happy. It makes me feel alive.