the colour of red

To The colour of red,

The other day i was dressed in red from head to toe...
I wore a red t-shirt...red chappals...and sported a red bag....
It felt kind of fun....
Red is THE colour for me....
You make me feel alive!!

Even today i'm wearing a lot of red...
You definitely are my favourite colour...
so this space on the blog is dedicated solely to you---

You can represent so many emotions...and moods... Anger...Love...Fun...Energy...Cheerfulness...
Warmth...Danger...Passion...Intensity...Life!!!
I can't think of any other colour that can hold within itself such an array of feelings and moods...
You rock...and when I wear you I rock...
seeing you around me also makes me cheerful...
i don't enjoy gaudy colours though...
so I if you remain just the way you are...
You are awesome!!

With love,
ME

Get A Life!!!

i am really agitated about the skin show in music videos...man...
i saw this one stupid hip hop video (most sound the same and look the same)...and i was really irritated...
day in and day out..you switch on the TV and all you see is...
women doing vulgar steps, wearing the skimpiest clothes and
giving those gross orgasmic expressions...

don't you think it's getting a bit too much??
all that most hip hop videos have, is women strutting their boobs and butts out...
in your face...
frankly i'm tired of watching all this stuff...
aren't the men tired of it?
or they themselves are a bunch of sleaze who derive pleasure from sleazy skin show...
do men actually get aroused when they see all this in these hip hop videos?
I wonder...

there is a thin line between vulgarity and sensuality....
look at our very own hindi remix videos...what are they trying to show?
girls over exposing themselves alongside weird dance steps...
there's nothing in there to watch...

even some of our hindi movie songs....
there's too much of skin show for no reason...except...that the film makers think that objectification of women will bring in the audience...
which is sadly the truth to an extent....

there are very few indi pop and hip hop videos that have used sensuality...
to attract the attention of the viewer...
and use the sex appeal of women and not vulgarity...to enhance their videos...
the problem is not with exposing...
the problem is with the way women are presented in these videos...
if women are not shown as objects...and their sex appeal is used to make...
a video aesthetic rather than vulgar....people would enjoy it more...
i think these people just need to...
GET A LIFE!!

can't even stretch

It's like almost 9:30 pm and i'm still hanging around in office...
Don't ask me why?
I played some computer game some time back...where a man standing in the snow is got to hit a penguin and send it flying with a base ball bat like thing...the farther the penguin lands the more points you get...it was kind of funny...i made the highest score..woohoo...

and after that I wasn't in the mood to do anything...so I'm blogging...
don't know why but i just don't feel like picking up my feet and getting lost from here...
it's not the lazy kind of feeling...not even tiredness...but I just don't feel like leaving from here...
it's not even a feeling of boredom...the thing is i just can't lift my feet at the moment...
i wasn't feeling like this even when i was stoned...
it's like i'm still and everything around me is moving around me...when someone speaks to me..it just passes from somewhere close to my ear and just disappears somewhere in the background...

it's not strange...yes it's rare...usually people don't feel like this...i guess...

I have this urge in me to play cards...and don't have a set..so have been dying to get it...don't know from where the idea of playing cards entered my head...it's been there since yesterday...i just thought of it out of the blue...and now I just want them too badly...
this isn't that strange either...it's just a little madness...that's taken over...

you need some amount of hysteria to keep you going in a world like ours...

An Awesome Feeling...

I met giri online after some six months!

At first I was shocked to see him online. There were these chats we used to have for hours...back in November and December last year, but after that it just stopped....because I no longer had net access in office and he had no net access at home...I didn't think about it too much because it wasn't going to help...I didn't force giri to get connection either...because it never struck me..the thing is I don't think much about telling him to do things...i'm sure even he didn't think of getting the connection...that's the way we are I guess..not too bothered about things...we don't think of many things that two people would think of, in a relationship..i donno how we have come this far...i think we should be congratulated for our patience...

well...so the thing is I met him online after ages....and I was so happy...anybody could guess by looking at my face that I was feeling crazily excited...it just makes my day you know, talking to him...

despite all the connection problems we both had...as he disappeared without a trace twice during the conversation...it was kind of cute the way we kept apologising...

we shared pics and all...i tried explaining my trips and the stuff that went behind the pics...wish i could go on and on chatting with him...

everytime I talk to him...I just feel like O my gosh I love him...and I feel kind of awesome!!!

Is that me after all?

I look at you.
Same eyes and nose,
Lips and all.
Did I look like that?
The face is familiar too!

Your hair never danced
to the tunes of the wind,
Your teeth never showed.
Then the image stares back at me.
Are you enhanced?

I think I know you.
Yes, just a bit decorated now.
And walking on your own.
Heading straight towards the heart.
I do get a clue or two.

Have you dissolved,
into the air around you?
And stand somewhere inside me.
Where I can't see but feel you.
Are you absolved?

You still exist, I call.
"I am you," a voice.
Waves crashing against me
I stand withered and all
Is that me after all?

The awesome chappal man

They weigh 12 kgs and they look as jazzy as it can get....
they are chappals made in a small village in maharashtra...
the proud owner of these is a small time farmer
and he has been wearing such kind of shoes for the past 20 years...
man!!!

I was stunned when i saw them....that's surely something in terms of creativity...

Ok you got to hear this one....
he has these other chappals with the shape of king cobra....
there's a small tape inside it...
a wire starting from the end of the shoe goes up from inside his dhoti...
to the battery attached on his waist...
so now every time he steps into these...the MUSIC plays...

Isn't that amazing...
for somebody as poor as him...coming from some small place?
who would come up with something as wierd as this?
well...he has shoes that weigh from 2kg to 12 kg...
so he wears whatever he prefers at that moment....
and boy...he's 60 years old...!!!
cheers to the spirit and creative thinkning of people like him...
and he does all this for fun...
what fun!!
LiFe rOcKs...

Peep

Books get you thinking...
some books really tap your innermost feelings and emotions...

one thing that struck me about "Tuesdays with Morries" was the simplicity of expression...
saying complex things in a straight simple manner makes the reader get down to basics...
Do some basic thinking about the most basic things that matter to us...
which we never get to doing...
we are so busy doing things that are not so important to us that
we don't focus on what really is important to us...
if we do what our heart wants and apply our mind when doing it
we can derive utmost joy out of it...

in case all this sounds like a lecture...
it is just something i need to do at the moment...
speak to my inner self...
if we spend some time speaking to our innerself
we shall realise, know and understand what we really are...
we would grow each moment..with each situation and each event in our lives...
and we would be fully aware of even a miniscule change and growth within us...

ask yourself questions...and then let your innerself answer them...
asking questions always helps you learn...
and if you don't get an answer...you should know that
the time hasn't come yet for the answer...
but your questions have set it into motion and it shall be arriving any moment...
you just need to keep your ears open to listen to it...
for it might come from anywhere...
but you got to believe that it will come
and that only you can make it come to you...
LOOK WITHIN...

Up and Above

A weekend up in the mountains...riding a bicycle in the pouring rains...with the wind blowing against your face...trekking up to some of the most gorgeous waterfalls....drenching yourself in the cool waters from the streams and rivulets....
how cool is that!!
we did all of that, and more!!!
how refreshing is it to go on a hiking trip with three morons for comany???
it is indeed refreshing!!

here's how the trip goes:
we wake up late...jojo waiting for us at the station for an hour.
we reach and find out that the local to lonavla will leave at 10am.
we sit in the local all excited...we couldn't wait to get our asses on the bikes.
we sit by the door with our legs let down...enjoying the scenic beauty and enjoying the drizzle and breeze.
we reach LONAVLA and find out where to hire the cycles from (yes we didn't know a thing).
tada....!!! with some sceptimism we hire the bikes...jojo and aanch get the tall men's cycles....god bless them.
we start our journey to the foot hill...
after several falls involving somu, aanch and jojo...we reach the destination...
park our cycles and head for the dam....
as we make our way to the dam...we see a baord showing the way to a waterfall...
wo we decide to check it out...
we dump the damn dam for better pursuits....up the hill...
after trekking for a while and somu's fall we reach nowhere....but a small rivulet running into the river...
but we decide to explore further and look for our destination: THE WATERFALL!!!
making way through the dirt road we reach a diversion....
aanch...morbid that she is warns us against going further...but somu and jojo's adventure's streak....makes us look beyond the diversion...
that is where we discover a beautiful waterfall...we were so glad we came that extra mile...
just when we slowly and cautiously made our way into the running water...which looked wild...a chaiwala comes in from nowhere....
then he disappears somewhere and comes back with chai after half an hour....
a major turn of events takes place!!!
he offers to take us to more waterfalls....if we wanted to go for the adventure trek...he says....
wo...how could we miss such an opportunity???
then we move from one point on the waterfall to another...
making our way through the weeds and trees....through narrow ways atop the hill...
and scary slippery stones....
the guide was awesome...he took us to some of the most amazing spots...
through some of the most amazing ways....
somu and jojo's near death experiences didn't deter our passion to traverse the hills....
nor did aanch's morbidity!!!
but by now aanch was in love with anil guide and was enjoying her trek more than ever...
after a gruelling trekking experience we reached the highest point of the waterfall one cuold go to....
back down...we were relieved that we took that diversion and went beyond....
way to go girls!!!
we felt like the adventurous four on a mission....
but the only distraction were men who can't let women just be!!!
men trying hit on were shooed away by our ever sharp somu with remarks they'd remember forever.
cycling back was not tough at all now....
we were so satisfied that we just paddled our way down....
wait....somebody had to fall...and this time it was jojo (again???) trying to maro style by holding the gate at the same time as she rode her bike.
now was the time to change back into some dry clothes....after the continues lashing rain drenched us.
OK...i forgot my jeans at home...so what do i do???
wear my red monkey pajyamas....
wo!!! how funny must i be looking..but who cares...!!
all that i can say is that once we were back in mumbai...we slept like the dead!!
only that aanch woke up next morning with fever....
somu found that all her belongings were soaked after the tank overflowed...
and i find my specs broken as somu crushes it under her butt....
i will remember the trip as the great falls of Lonavla...with lots of waterfalls and lots of...
jojo, aanch and somu falls.

phew!!!

Up There

Up there.
Floating?
Flying?
Watching over?
My feet rest on the ground.
Grounded?
Humbled?
Staring within?
Fumes breathe for me.
Let go and capture
my senses.
Free!
Light benumbs me.
Darkness melts away.
Head spins.
Takes me to distant lands
Of rays, and the crossing lines
Inside them.
"Pull me deeper
Into the circle,"
I scream mutely.
I rise and fall at the same time.
Travel and halt in succession.
Lying here, am I?
Or dancing somwhere?
Walking down, am I?
Or crawling lower and lower?
The shining sun and the shimmering moon
Envelope me.
I’m still here!
Or am I
Up there?

high on life

high ???
that i have been high the whole of last week goes without saying
Reasons:

1: Totos...we made a hat trick at Totos...we carried our asses there 3 days in a row
Thursday: Occasion- Aanch's b'day (Aanch would have killed us if we didn't, it was her B'Day wish after all)
Friday: Occasion- Kanika's call out of the blue at a time when the trio was lazying around, preparing
to doze off)
Saturday: Occassion- The cancellation of I-rock was incentive enough

2: B'day parties...jojo, somu and then aanch...everybody had to be born
around the same time...but the close proximity of high volatage activity kept me
alive and kicking...
the planning...surprises...gifts...and the likes...
raised the mundane days to a different level....days (can't forget to mention the nights)
full of enthusiasm and fun....leave behind the fact that i've had to let go of my right to sleep....

3: X & Y...the music just seems to pull me into it....takes me on a trip i never made...
the words just hold my hand and show me different places...places i've never been to...
each of the songs has the magical ability to lift you up and take u to a different level....
COLDPLAY....is....after...all...COLDPLAY

What if there was no light?

Nothing wrong, nothing right.

What if there was no time?

And no reason or rhyme.

What if you should decide

That you don't want me there by your side.

That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song

Could put right what I got wrong

Or make you feel I belong

What if you should decide

That you don't want me there by your side

That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooh, let's try

Let's take a breath jump over the side

Oooh, let's try

How can you know it if you don't even try

Oooh, let's try

...to be continued...